...I am not so sure of the difference... What I am sure about, is how exited I am to start this new year. I can already see new challenges to face, new people to meet, new projects to take on! Of course, I look back at where I was at this time last year, and I can't help but think about the changes that have occurred since this January 2009.
I feel less scared, less worried, less intimidated by my circumstances. I feel a new confidence, and assurance that I am the right path. On the other hand, I can't help but wonder how callous my heart is getting. Am I building too many walls around me? I think I am... but I can't remember how to put them down. I can't remember why I put them up in the first place... Well, that's a lie... I do remember. I don't like getting hurt. I don't like opening up. I don't like bothering people. Sigh. Will I ever learn? I will... I am. In the meantime, I will keep walking, because I can, because I know I am the right direction.
Would you tell me if I weren't?
Happy new year!
EED
I feel less scared, less worried, less intimidated by my circumstances. I feel a new confidence, and assurance that I am the right path. On the other hand, I can't help but wonder how callous my heart is getting. Am I building too many walls around me? I think I am... but I can't remember how to put them down. I can't remember why I put them up in the first place... Well, that's a lie... I do remember. I don't like getting hurt. I don't like opening up. I don't like bothering people. Sigh. Will I ever learn? I will... I am. In the meantime, I will keep walking, because I can, because I know I am the right direction.
Would you tell me if I weren't?
Happy new year!
EED
1 comment:
I took a Boundaries class a few years ago because all my friends were taking one. I thought I was great at boundaries - I can easily tell people "no" when I don't want to do something. But through the class I found out that I had so many walls up around my heart that I was saying "no" too much and keeping people out.
Good boundaries have doors, not just walls. I learned to let people in and trust people when I had been hurt before. Not sure if you've read Boundaries but thought I'd throw that out there in case you might want to read it (again).
Btw, it's twenty-ten. When it was 1980, we didn't say "one thousand nine hundred and eighty." And few said "nineteen hundred and eighty" unless it was a formal event. Funny how a habit changed over 10 years.
Oh, and really, say it however you want. ;)
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