I don’t think I harbor a lot of resentment towards others. Not because I am perfect, and all my friends are perfect. It is mainly from personal experience.
I realized at a very young age that we are all humans and we all make mistakes, even (especially?) the people I looked up to. (Humm... I almost detect disappointment in this last comment, but this topic is for next week's podcast) If anything, I am guilty of being a little too forgiving sometimes towards some people, which can also be a problem in itself.
Does it mean that I don’t set expectations for myself, or the people around me? No. I think it just means that I try to be careful when I actually set these expectations.
The resentment I DO feel towards a few people in my life is centered on the same issue: trust. I have to admit that I do carry some sort of resentment towards a few people who have made it hard for me trust again. I am working on this though. I promise!
"Who can say, "I have cleansed my heart, I am pure from my sin"?" Proverbs 20:9
I can't... I am still in progress...
I've tried to look back at the recent years, and think of who could be harboring resentment against me... (I know it sounds hard to believe, because I am soooo sweet!-lol). I can think of a few people. I have had to completely break a few ties with some people from my past, mostly to save my own sanity; but looking back, I could have done it more gracefully. I am not sure how I feel about "making things right" with a few people, knowing that it could possibly open the door to some questionable lifestyle and negative thoughts... Need to ponder more on that...
As I work on each of these emotions (being overwhelmed, depressed, resentful...), I can actually feel God's hand touching my heart a little more each day, making it softer and less troubled. This is probably a good time to quote the one of the theme verses for this series:
"Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God, and also trust in me." John 14:1
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